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[ti:Steven]
[ar:Jake Miller]
[al:The Road Less Traveled - EP]
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[00:15.517]Yeah look
[00:17.257]耶，瞧瞧
[00:17.257]Let me tell you about
[00:18.077]让我跟你讲一讲
[00:18.077]A kid named Steven
[00:19.387]一个叫史蒂文的孩子的故事
[00:19.387]He's slowly running out
[00:19.957]他慢慢地
[00:19.957]Of things to believe in
[00:21.480]愈发失去信仰
[00:21.480]Every couple of months
[00:22.360]每两个月
[00:22.360]His mom leaves him
[00:23.100]**妈就会丢下他
[00:23.100]For no good reason
[00:24.230]毫无缘由的
[00:24.230]His step-dad beats him
[00:25.600]他的继父就会打骂她
[00:25.600]Not too many friends
[00:26.280]没什么朋友
[00:26.280]Only ever had a few of them
[00:27.670]就曾经有那么一两个而已
[00:27.670]But recently they don't want
[00:28.410]但现在
[00:28.410]Anything to do with him
[00:29.470]他们也不愿跟他一起玩
[00:29.470]Always eating lunch
[00:30.220]总是独自一人
[00:30.220]In the bathroom stall
[00:31.030]在厕所吃午餐
[00:31.030]He just wants to feel normal
[00:32.340]他只是想成为普通人
[00:32.340]And be cool again yeah
[00:33.840]再酷一点，耶
[00:33.840]Always feeling like the outcast
[00:35.390]总是感觉像是被遗弃的人
[00:35.390]He's been going crazy
[00:36.260]自从父亲过世
[00:36.260]Ever since his dad passed
[00:37.390]他就感觉自己疯了
[00:37.390]He needs guidance
[00:38.020]他需要指导和建议
[00:38.020]And advice but instead
[00:39.090]但反之
[00:39.090]He only has breakdowns
[00:40.110]他只有父亲车祸时
[00:40.110]And flashbacks of the car crash uh
[00:42.110]无尽的崩溃和记忆片段
[00:42.110]It's been getting harder everyday
[00:43.640]每天都变得越来越难
[00:43.640]If he was still around
[00:44.580]如果他仍在身旁
[00:44.580]Everything would be ok
[00:45.760]一切应该都会好起来的
[00:45.760]Cuz his dad was always the light
[00:46.940]因为他父亲一直都是
[00:46.940]At the end of the tunnel
[00:47.940]黑暗隧道末那抹明亮
[00:47.940]But now that same damn tunnel
[00:48.870]但如今还是那该死的隧道
[00:48.870]Is looking dark and grey
[00:50.380]看起来愈发漆黑与灰暗
[00:50.380]He keeps quiet in the back of the class
[00:52.060]他安静地坐在教室后面
[00:52.060]And when the bell rings
[00:53.180]当铃声一响
[00:53.180]Steven hurries home fast
[00:54.490]史蒂文就匆忙赶回家
[00:54.490]Scared to death the other kids
[00:55.670]他极其害怕其他孩子
[00:55.670]Will kick his a** on the long walk home
[00:57.360]会在回家路上揍他
[00:57.360]Cuz its happened in the past so
[00:58.670]因为这过去曾发生过
[00:58.670]He's getting used to
[00:59.470]因此他都习惯了
[00:59.470]The black eyes and fat lips
[01:00.840]那双黑眼睛和那厚嘴唇
[01:00.840]But all he's got is a fake smile and cut wrists
[01:02.920]但他得到的是一个假笑和割手腕
[01:02.920]Wishin' he could walk right up to them
[01:04.250]真想他能走向他们
[01:04.250]And show them the scars
[01:05.130]给他们看伤疤
[01:05.130]And say look you're the reason
[01:05.990]说到，看吧，就因为你
[01:05.990]That I've done this
[01:07.180]我已经这样做了
[01:07.180]Maybe they would finally understand
[01:08.540]也许他们最终会明白的
[01:08.540]And go back to how it was before it all began
[01:10.660]回到最初如何开始的时候
[01:10.660]But he's just a little different
[01:11.660]但他还是有点不同
[01:11.660]So they taunt him and they beat him
[01:12.910]因此他们奚落他，殴打他
[01:12.910]Yeah it's all just fun and games
[01:14.030]是的，一切都只是娱乐和游戏
[01:14.030]They don't give a damn yeah
[01:15.180]他们一点也不在乎，是的
[01:15.180]His older brother ain't around
[01:16.580]他的哥哥没在身边
[01:16.580]In and out of jail
[01:17.580]他老是在监狱进进出出
[01:17.580]Hanging with the wrong crowd
[01:18.700]跟着一堆小混混成天厮混
[01:18.700]He's been doing coke smoking w**d
[01:20.010]他一直在**，抽**
[01:20.010]Getting drunk all his life he's a shame
[01:21.700]成天醉酒，他是一个耻辱
[01:21.700]No he's not too proud
[01:22.670]不，他并不骄傲得意
[01:22.670]Now his habits are rubbing off
[01:24.160]现在他的习惯
[01:24.160]On his little bro yeah
[01:25.530]正在逐渐影响他的弟弟
[01:25.530]But guess what
[01:26.280]但你猜怎么着
[01:26.280]Little did he know
[01:27.100]他一点都没意识到
[01:27.100]That everytime he did a line
[01:28.450]每一次他准备吸食**
[01:28.450]Everytime he lit a joint
[01:29.450]每一次点燃**卷
[01:29.450]Everytime he took a shot
[01:30.510]每一次尝试
[01:30.510]He was sippin mode
[01:31.320]他都是在竖立示范
[01:31.320]So Steven's sitting in his room
[01:32.510]所以史蒂文坐在他的房间
[01:32.510]Getting high now
[01:33.380]兴致勃勃的嗨着药
[01:33.380]Doors locked music up
[01:34.510]锁好门，放着音乐
[01:34.510]With his lights out
[01:35.570]把灯熄灭
[01:35.570]He just takes another tote
[01:36.580]又来一只
[01:36.580]Til his room fills with smoke
[01:37.580]直到整个房间烟雾弥漫
[01:37.580]5-6-7 hours til he knocks out
[01:39.630]好几个小时，一直到不省人事
[01:39.630]Now he started stealing pills from his mom
[01:41.470]现在他开始偷他的妈妈的药
[01:41.470]8-9-10 at a time and now they're gone
[01:43.590]一次偷很多，现在他们都走了
[01:43.590]And maybe for a moment
[01:44.530]也许有那么一会儿
[01:44.530]All his problems seem to fade
[01:45.540]他所有的问题似乎都消失了
[01:45.540]But the high fades too after not too long
[01:47.540]但幻觉不久也会消失
[01:47.540]And that's when it really sinks in
[01:48.850]当真正沉迷入内
[01:48.850]And that's when it hits him
[01:50.030]也使他意识到
[01:50.030]That these god damn *** won't fix him
[01:51.780]这些该死的药物无法解决他的问题
[01:51.780]Curled up on the floor
[01:52.900]蜷缩在地板上
[01:52.900]Can't take it anymore
[01:53.780]再也无法忍受下去
[01:53.780]Now he's talking to God
[01:54.770]现在他对神说着话
[01:54.770]Cuz he's the only one that gets him
[01:56.210]因为只有神能懂他
[01:56.210]On his knees looking up
[01:57.530]跪在地上，望着天
[01:57.530]Can't stop crying
[01:58.270]泪流不止
[01:58.270]"God I know we haven't talked in a long time
[02:00.390]上帝，我知道我们很久都没有交谈过了
[02:00.390]But this time I really need you
[02:01.880]但这一次我真的很需要你
[02:01.880]Please God help me say something
[02:03.230]求您了，上帝，帮助我，跟我说点什么
[02:03.230]Just give me a sign
[02:04.120]给我一点讯息
[02:04.120]Because now I'm falling apart and
[02:05.210]因为现在我已经崩溃了
[02:05.210]I don't think that I can do it
[02:06.640]我做不到了
[02:06.640]Please God give me the strength
[02:07.770]请上帝赐给我力量
[02:07.770]To pull through it Tell me
[02:08.890]让我度过难关，请告诉我
[02:08.890]Should I give up
[02:09.700]我应该放弃吗
[02:09.700]I could end it all right now
[02:11.010]我现在就可以结束这一切
[02:11.010]I just don't know
[02:11.700]我就是不知道
[02:11.700]If I'm brave enough to do it
[02:13.010]我是否足够勇敢去做
[02:13.010]Cuz there's gotta
[02:13.570]因为
[02:13.570]Be a better way than suicide
[02:14.960]肯定有比自杀更好的方法
[02:14.960]Try to wait it out
[02:15.900]试着等待
[02:15.900]Give it time you'll be fine
[02:17.020]给一点时间，你会好起来的
[02:17.020]But it's been so long
[02:18.090]但这已经过了这么长的时间
[02:18.090]And I still haven't been able to get rid
[02:19.640]我仍然没能摆脱
[02:19.640]Of all the thoughts that I feel inside
[02:21.050]我内心所有的想法
[02:21.050]So sick so angry so mad
[02:23.360]很恶心，很气愤，很疯狂
[02:23.360]And to top it off no one even knows that"
[02:25.250]最糟糕的是，甚至没人知道
[02:25.250]That's when he stood up
[02:26.190]当他起身
[02:26.190]Wiped his tears
[02:27.000]擦干泪水
[02:27.000]Walked over to his desk
[02:28.060]走到他的书桌旁
[02:28.060]And got a pen and a notepad
[02:29.780]拿了一支笔和记事本
[02:29.780]He just couldn't see it getting any better
[02:31.340]他不见好转
[02:31.340]So on a cold dark night in December
[02:33.500]所以在12月的一个寒冷的夜晚
[02:33.500]Steven knew exactly
[02:34.490]史蒂文清楚地知道
[02:34.490]What he had to do
[02:35.430]他该做什么
[02:35.430]But first he sat down
[02:36.550]但他首先坐下来
[02:36.550]And wrote a couple letters
[02:37.550]写了几封信
[02:37.550]One to his step-dad
[02:38.550]一封是给他的继父
[02:38.550]One to his mother
[02:39.610]一封是给他的妈妈
[02:39.610]Couple to the kids at school
[02:40.870]好几封是给学校那几个孩子
[02:40.870]One to his brother
[02:41.750]一封是给他的哥哥
[02:41.750]Bringing them the pain
[02:42.620]也要把痛苦带给他们
[02:42.620]That they once brought him
[02:43.690]那些他们曾经给他带来的伤痛
[02:43.690]Tear drops on the paper one after another
[02:46.170]泪水一颗颗滴落在信纸上
[02:46.170]Yeah I hope that you all feel guilty
[02:48.290]耶，我希望你们都感到负罪感
[02:48.290]Cuz I'm broken now
[02:49.040]因为我现在完了
[02:49.040]And you can't heal me
[02:50.350]你不能治好我
[02:50.350]And now you're all an accompliss in murder
[02:52.040]如今你就是杀手
[02:52.040]Each and every one of you
[02:53.090]你们中的每一个
[02:53.090]Has chipped in to kill me
[02:54.400]都沾满我死亡的鲜血
[02:54.400]So the reason that
[02:55.270]因此
[02:55.270]I'm writing you this evening
[02:56.500]今晚我给你写下这些的目的
[02:56.500]Is to say goodbye
[02:57.180]就是说声再见
[02:57.180]And to tell you that I'm leaving
[02:58.520]也跟你说一声，我走了
[02:58.520]But don't hold your breath
[02:59.510]但别屏住呼吸
[02:59.510]Cuz I ain't never coming back
[03:00.790]因为我是不会再回来了
[03:00.790]Sincerely yours Steven
[03:02.420]你真挚的史蒂文
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